My mom is dying. It's just a matter of days at the most ...at this point. She has refused food for about 4 days now and won't attempt to drink anything because she gets strangled on just tiniest bit of liquid. Hospice began on Thursday. That is a great organization if you ever have a need for a service such as this. I was relieved just after they arrived and began talking to us as a family. One thing for sure this week has taught me and that is, I can't do this without them.
This week has been so long, tiring, depressing and stressful. I know many of you have experienced this and I thought after loosing Charlie, this would not be as bad as it has been. In fact, this has been worse. Maybe because I've never seen her this weak. I dunno....
One thing for sure.... this can't last much longer..... It has to end soon because there are not enough xanax in my purse if it doesn't.....
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I know exactly where you are coming from. We went through the exact same thing with my Mother. It is so heartbreaking to have to go through it with them knowing there isn't one thing you can do. Hospice is a wonderful organization. We used them also. My prayers are with your Mom, you, and the rest of the family. Helen
I'm so sad about this right now, because I don't think we're ever completely "ready" or "ok" with times like this. I wish peace and comfort for your Mom in whatever form it has to take, and I hope you know that the same wish applies to you. Please take care, and keep us posted when possible ok?
My prayers, as well as my friendship, are with you tonight.
Jimmy
I cannot even imagine how you are feeling, but my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
xoxo !Myra
I came by way of Jimmy's journal to let you know that your mom and your family are in my prayers and thoughts tonight. May the lord be with you.
Sam
Hugs to you. Sending good thoughts, prayers, and strength.
d
Jimmy sent me......
I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I pray that your mother does not suffer & that you keep her as comfortable as possible. I pray that you have the strength to endore.
{{{HUGS}}} & prayers being sent your way~
Marie
I am so sorry...it is a difficult thing to endure. I agree with you about Hospice. Wonderful people. I got your link from Jimmy. Take good care...Jae
Sending you love...and strength in any way you need...
Nancy (Jimmy's friend)
Jimmy sent me here to send you a ((hug)). Hospice workers are angels in people costumes. AMAZING. Praying for you and your family...and especially your mom.
((hugs))
Jeanne
So sorry to hear of this. It is hard to go through. I pray for comfort for your mom and comfort and strength for you and the family. Talking helps. Even talking to your mom, talkabout the good times and memories and funny times too, That is comforting to her. take care of yourself too. barb
Jimmy sent me over:) i am so sorry that your mom is dying. Hospice are Angels when my grandpa was dying they were a God send keeping you all in prayer
Deb
here by way of a caring friend Jimmy... I'm so sorry you are going through such a painful time with your mom. I will keep you in my prayers, if that's okay, and also in my thoughts...
Michelle
Jimmy sent me over. (((((HUGS))))) I know what you are going through. Just went through this with my Dad in January. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, but in the end, I was so greatful that I was able to be there with him. The hospice nurses really are angels in disguise. They were amazing with us. I'll be thinking of you and your family. May you find a little bit of comfort somehow during this time of sorrow.
~Stephanie~
Hi, I came by via Jimmy's and my thoughts are with you at this time; I know what you are going through having been in the same situation a while ago. Take care and just keep letting her know you are with her.
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I have Cancer myself and am having a hard time watching my children deal with this disease. It's as if the whole family gets the ilness along with the loved one. My girls are not used to seeing their Mother weak and vulnerable...I have been so scrappy all their lives...I think that is what you are experiencing now...Our parents were always pillars of strengths to us when we were children and young adults...they were our guides in life and to know that their leaving shakes us to our very soul. I lost my own Dad when I was 16 and boy did that mess me up...I can't help but feel when my Mother passes (I'm now 44 and she is soon to be a healthy 70" that I will feel orphaned, I've always been Mike and Louise Daughter...when she goes, even though I have many other titles (Wife, Mom, Sister) I will miss that the most, God Speed.
Kimberleigh
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My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Family ~ Jimmy's friend ~ Ally
Losing a parent is never easy. I lost my dad. I watched him go from someone who could do anything to someone who didn't even know me. I fear every day for my mom. One day she won't be here. Deep inside, we are all still little kids when it comes to our parents. What get's me through is knowing where he is. What an Easter he has! You will get through this. One second at a time. God bless. Tammy
I am so sorry to hear this. Hospice is really wonderful...my mom passed away at one...and they treated all of us really well. My prayers are with you.
Tracie
jimmy sent me over...i will be sure to keep your family in my thoughts and prayers...
take care
emily
You are all in my thoughts and in my prayers.
Sara xxx
(((((Jackie))))))) I'm so sorry.....wish there were more I could say or do, but please know I'm praying for you.
~Meg
I found hospice to be extremely helpful and supportive when my last male companion wanted to die at home. I could not have done it without them stopping in every day and taking care of all the problems that came up post haste. Gerry
I'll be praying for your family Jackie. Jeannette xx http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/
im so sorry you and your family are in my thoughts (sent over by stupid) cass
I am sending prayers for you and your family.
Terra
Jimmy sent me over via his journal. I'm so sorry about your mom. I lost mine in 1994. It was HELL then. But, I can tell you that 13yrs later it has NOT become easier, but it has become more tolerable. Thoughts of her don't fill my thoughts each waking moment. But, she's there a lot.
You'll be ok....really you will.
Will be keeping you in my prayers.
Pam
My prayers go out to you and your family. This is an impossibly difficult time for all of you. (I came here via Jimmy's journal.)
Nikki
I came here via Jimmy's journal. I lost my Mom a fw years ago and went through what you are going through. Hospice was wonderful! It's still a rough thing and my heart and prayers go out to you. Merry1621 PS I also had Hospice conseling after Mom died. That helped even more.
{{{{Jackie}}}} I kind of jumped ahead a bit, before leaving this comment and I know that your mom has passed away. I am so sorry. From what you were saying it sounds like she was suffering from much the same thing as my brother, right before he passed away. As for Hospice. They are phenomenal! So helpful, and right there when you need them. Angels without wings, aren't they?
My thoughts and prayers are with you Jackie... and I am so, so sorry for being so late getting here. It's amazing the things that can happen in someones life when you are away for a couple weeks.
God bless you my friend..
Much love, and many prayers.
jackie
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