Saturday, March 31, 2007

Role Play

As the sorrow eases of my mother's passing, I am finding myself playing a new family role. Funny, I never really thought about it before. Being the eldest and the closer in proximity, I have been silently placed into a position of authority---- decision maker for our little family in certain areas. The realization was apparent last night after receiving a phone call from both sister and father, one right after the other. Don't misunderstand... I love they are suddenly phoning more often.... it's just new. The conversations went kinda like this:

Sister: I almost phoned mother until i remembered, so i called you instead. I got your e-mails about 'this' and 'that'. It's fine with me that you do that.


Daddy: Oh? You did those things? That's fine with me. BTW, add 'people' and 'person' to the list of  Thank You cards.

Suddenly, I am thinking I might have to mature.... just a little.... scary stuff.....

Monday, March 26, 2007

Monday Morning

Thanks to all the readers for the prayers, peace and your thoughtfulness. I need them and will continue to need them in the next few days. I knew there were a lot of great people out there in J-Land, and this proves it!

Mom passed on just before 11:00 last night.  She had deteriorated quite a bit after I returned this evening.  So far, I am fine. I just wonder how life without my mom will be? I've known her for almost 48 years... It'll be strange for sure.....

Thanks again for all your kindness......


Sunday, March 25, 2007


I just got home a few minutes ago. Mom was still with us, but almost unable to say anything at all at this point. Her mind is still pretty sharp. I kinda hate that. Wouldn't it be easier on her if she can't let us know what she wants, for her to not to be conscience? I dunno.. I'm just guessing, or grasping...  She says she isn't in any pain, but how could she not be? I had to lift her yesterday.... I can pick her up without any problem. What does that tell you? Well, it says I'm the son my father never had or she has lost a lot of weight.... Ok, make that both...  She has lost a huge amount of weight this month.

BTW, thanks to Jimmy and all his readers that stopped by last night or this morning. You will never know how much I appreciate it!  Also, thanks to Mary, Susan, Sue, Ray, Patrick and Chuck for everything!  You know who you are and how important you are to me!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

My mom is dying. It's just a matter of days at the most this point. She has refused food for about 4 days now and won't attempt to drink anything because she gets strangled on just tiniest bit of liquid. Hospice began on Thursday. That is a great organization if you ever have a need for a service such as this. I was relieved just after they arrived and began talking to us as a family. One thing for sure this week has taught me and that is, I can't do this without them.

This week has been so long, tiring, depressing and stressful.  I know many of you have experienced this and I thought after loosing Charlie, this would not be as bad as it has been. In fact, this has been worse. Maybe because I've never seen her this weak. I dunno....

One thing for sure.... this can't last much longer..... It has to end soon because there are not enough xanax in my purse if it doesn't.....

Thursday, March 15, 2007


Will this week ever be over? 

Doesn't seem to want to end....

It's needs to find a life other than mine...

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Internal Organs

Conversation between aide, student and then to nurse:

Student: My side hurts. What is on this side?

Aide: I think your spleen is on that side.

Student to Nurse: My spream is killing me!!!!!


Saturday, March 10, 2007

March On

March came roaring in and doesn't seem to have changed much. It began with the tornado that rushed through a high school in south Alabama, killing about 8 of it's students.

In the morning, we changed our clocks.... very early this year. That's cool with me... although, I have to admit I don't care much for springing forward. I'm southern. We don't spring forward very often until we just absolutely have to!

Mom has been in and out, then back in the hospital in the last couple of weeks or so. She came home last Monday, only to have to go back in Thursday night. She's still in there. She won't eat. Sis called me today to fill me in. She said they weighed her and she came in at 89 pounds. She won't eat anything unless sis takes it. She is also diabetic and her blood sugar is often lower than it should be because she won't eat. Trust me when I say, this is not a good thing. Here mom... I'll give you some of my blood sugar... 

I'm a stress eater... unfortunately, I'm always stressed! 

Friday, March 2, 2007

Just Two Things

My buddy, Jimmy the boot guy, sent me this... He wanted it sent back, but I think he can just read it here! 

If you opened it, you have to do it.
Then, send it back to the person who sent it to you and the rest of
your friends.
Two Names You Go By:
1. Jackie
2. JC

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.  Pink T-shirt
2. Flannel pj bottoms
Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:
1.  Love
2.  humor
Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
1.  Hang with my cousin
2.  Be so totally involved in a book that I can't or don't want to put it down.
Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1. New Sofa
2. Riding lawn mower aka yard boy <grin>
Two pets you had/have:
1.  Mike (the dog, not the friend)
2.  Quinn, another dog
Two people who will fill this out:
1.  It would be easier to name 2 people that won't fill it out...
Two things you did last night:
1.  Went to hospital to see my mom
2.  Slept
Two things you ate today:
1.   Chicken sandwich
2.   Wasabi peas
Two people you Last Talked To:
1.   Bo
2.   Sister
Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1.  Sleep until I want to get up.
2.  Go to hospital
Two longest car rides:
1.  Orange Beach, AL
2.  Franklin, IN
Two Favorite Holidays:
1.  Thanksgiving (#1 favorite!)
2.  Last day of school for the year
Two favorite beverages:
1. Sweet tea (no unsweet tea <grin>... it's a southern thing...>
2. diet ginger ale